Catchy title, right? Not wishing to be dramatic here. Just telling it like it is.
For some people, living in “the light” means being of a higher vibration and seeing that vibration in all of existence. That is beautiful, amazing and wonderful. It is possible to find your Zen and look at life from the higher perspective and realize that no matter what happens in the lifetime, you are a soul with a continuous stream of existence.
For other people, they find their spirituality within the light by adapting belief systems and practices that allow them to feel closer to their higher power. This too, is an incredible way of life.
And still others take on roles as light workers, healers, ministers and such to help people open up to their light, to empower them to embrace their spirit and their strength. Many of these Spiritual teachers and leaders teach that we are of a vibration now where darkness no longer exists, while others will pound the reality of evil into the forefront of their teachings to elicit fear.
So where is reality in all this?
I believe we create our own reality through our perspective. If you believe that we are living in a higher dimension right now where no dark energies can be present, then that is your reality. If you believe you have to adhere to certain rules and rituals because the devil waits for you around each corner, then that is your truth.
I never really believed in curses or spells. Sure, I liked to play witch when I was a little girl and was known to play with candles when I wasn’t supposed to. I was drawn to ancient Egyptian texts at a young age and marveled at their rites and incantations used in ceremony. I thought it magical. I respected their devotion to their faith. But that, honestly, was about it.
Then began my studies in Native American Shamanism. I was part of ceremonial practices and could feel Spirit and energy all around me. It wasn’t a spell. I wasn’t directing negativity to anyone. It was beautiful, engaging, entrancing and LIGHT! The connection made my heart sing.
As I dug deeper into my spiritual learning, I still held a disregard for curses, believing that only those in a state of fear and adhering to a particular belief system could be affected by such things. I gave this practice no power whatsoever. Even when my teachers would explain about psychic warfare and how to combat it, I would go to my happy place in my mind. Those things had nothing to do with me. They were for other people, not as “light” as me of course, to deal with in their reality.
And then I got my first attachment. It hit me hard. I was depleted, mentally, physically, emotionally and definitely spiritually. I thought I was losing my mind. I couldn’t concentrate, didn’t want to move and definitely felt like leaving this life would be the best choice I could make. Thankfully, I turned to a trusted teacher and Shaman for help. I thought it was something purely physical or perhaps I pulled something in from a client.
As I spoke to my Elder, he connected with my energy. I could see him going into trance and taking inventory of my field. Within moments he told me each physical symptom I was having, the negative thoughts I’d been experiencing as well as visions of a man I’d been working with. He went on further to explain to me that this man had placed a negative entity into my energy field to weaken me and cause me harm.
I was dumbfounded. Why would anyone want to do that? I was very Pollyannaish about being of the light. I thought as long as I did my light work I got a free pass on negativity.
Ummmm….NO! Even as I write that statement I cringe. And I laugh.
My wonderful teacher explained to me the importance of boundaries – physical, emotional and energetic. He also enforced and reiterated the tools I had been taught but not practicing myself in regards to clearing and dealing with negative energies directed to cause and inflict harm.
My mind and heart went into fear. Was I so weak that I allowed this person to harm me? What would happen next time? Why didn’t my guides let me know? How can I be intuitive and not know this?
I saw the eyes of my teacher begin to sparkle and a smile paint across his compassionate face. “What did you learn?” He asked. “What gifts were you given? And Honey, if you expect your guides to give you ALL the answers you are barking up the wrong tree. If they gave you all the answers why would you be here? You would stay on the other side.”
I sat with that. Long and hard I sat with that. I began to realize that life is a learning curve. Each experience gifts us an opportunity to discover something new.
Doing this work for going on 20 years now, I’ve witnessed and experienced more than my share of light and dark. I believe we can’t have one without the other – not on this Earth plane. We come here to experience both and to learn from each. And then we have a choice. Which will we allow to be the driving force in our life, good or evil?
Yes, there are curses, spells, negative entities, demons, dark dimensional beings, psychic attacks and other creepy crawlies in existence. But that doesn’t mean we have to bury our heads in the sand or hide under the covers. Knowledge, as they say, is power. There are tools to deter each of these scenarios and just because something is out there doesn’t mean you will experience it.
Every bad thing that happens in your life isn’t because of a curse or some sorcerer conjuring black magic. Take responsibility for your life, meaning – your BODY, your MIND and your ENERGY. When all are in good working order with proper boundaries in place, no darkness can come through.
Again, it is my distinct pleasure and honor to be with you all this evening, to feel your hearts, to be in the presence of such power, such beauty, and such spirit. It is a playground, if you will, to me, to see the joy, the peace and the love and the light that exists within you all.
For you are BRAVE, Dear Ones. You are courageous. You are one of the few in an infinite amount of souls on the other side who said yes, I volunteer to be human. I volunteer to come down to a place, a plane, this Earth, where things are dense and I will fit into this vehicle called a physical self and I will forget about home. I will allow a veil to be placed over my eyes and over my heart. And I will learn the duality of good and evil. I will learn the duality of love and hate.
But I will still choose LOVE.
And through choosing LOVE I will recognize my own light. As I vibrate at that frequency of light that veil will begin to thin. I will remember home. I will remember the soul and the strength that I am. I will remember my truth no matter who tries to dim my light. No matter who tries to tell me otherwise.
There are many trials and tribulations going on in your world now, going on all around you. And it is time, Dear Ones, for you to truly see your light and embrace it. So much fear is present in your world right now. There are those who are evil who are pushing the boundaries and limits of fear for this is what feeds them. This is what makes them feel powerful. And they will try to distract you. They will try to displace your focus and your concern.
Let me tell you Dear Ones, evil does not care what color you are, what religion you are, what your gender, your faith or your sexual preference is. Evil affects all if we allow it.
Dear Ones, where these is light there can be no darkness.
Do not feed into the fear of those who want power and control. See them for what they are. Band together as the Lightworkers that you are and create waves of light within this Earth plane and indeed within the universe. This battle has been going on for eons of time especially since the creation of planet Earth itself. Time and time again Lightworkers have won and continue to win. Light Warriors stand up tall against the darkness. I say these things to heed you, to give you warning. It is not to place fear within you, but to let you know your strength, and your power and your greatness. It is time to OWN that greatness, Dear Ones. It is time to take the leap of faith. Time to stand within that joy. To stand within the love that you were created in. To know that you are worthy. This is your birthright, Dear Ones; to live in a world of harmony and peace and joy; to be safe; to not feel threatened as you walk down a street or worry about where you may travel to.
You, yourselves, with your minds, and with your hearts can create a world of harmony. For as you shine your light brightly, as you believe in your light, as you embrace your truth and your soul, you illuminate the path for other souls themselves.
Imagine if you will, someone close to you being in a state of fear, and you illuminating your light so brightly that they remember their own. It is like a wildfire sparking and continuing on. You are fanning a flame so that others may remember their own truth and their own light.
These children that are upon this planet right now, they are old souls. Some call them crystalline, some call them indigo, some call them rainbow. These are Light Warriors, Dear Ones. Light Warriors who have been around since time began. They have been illuminating their light. They have been shining brightly so that others recognize and connect to their own spiritual truths, their own core essence of the soul they are. These children are here for reasons. Deep seeded reasons. If you think of the story of Lemurian crystals and how the people of Lemuria planted these seed crystals all over your planet to be found again, so records and memories and that history can be rediscovered – I tell you these children carry this same philosophy, have that same essence, that same meaning and reason for being here.
They are activators. For when you connect with these children, they cause you to remember WHO you are. They activate the vibration of home within you. You see their strength. You see their wisdom. And you want more of that. You want to see that within yourself. They mirror that vibration back to you, so you not only remember the childlike innocence, and playfulness and joy that is truly inside of you, but you remember the light of Home and you recognize it inside of yourself.
Treat these children well, Dear Ones. For those that are labeled autistic and ADHD are some of the most dimensionally connected humans upon your planet.
It is so important to bond together and release the judgment that you have, not only for others but most definitely about yourselves. There is a standard in which you criticize yourselves. When you belittle yourself, or when you compare your successes, or your failures, or your appearance, or your health, or your finances to someone else you are pulling your energy down. That is not a way to raise your vibration.
If you think of yourself as the God-Self that you are, would God criticize you? Would Mother/Father God come and tell you that your body is anything less than perfection? You ARE perfection, Dear Ones, absolutely. You have a beauty that exceeds any words that I could ever come up with. That beauty is not just within your physicality, it is within your light, your heart, compassion, your understanding, the way that you treat your fellow man. THAT is LOVE. THAT is NOT belittling. That beauty is not pulling away from your self-esteem or your self-worth.
I would urge each of you to allow yourselves to feel whatever feelings you are encountering at this time. If that is sadness, allow yourself to cry. Release it. Let it go. If you are grieving, if you are angry, if you are happy, if you are joyful – allow that emotion to express within your physical self. So much illness is present because those emotions are stuffed into a container somewhere within your physical self. This manifests as DIS-ease and imbalance within your body. Wherever these is dis-ease and imbalance your energetic patterning and energetic field cannot flow, cannot flow correctly. Think of a river that runs very clear, and very fast and circulates. When you cast doubt upon yourself, when you allow this dis-ease or imbalance to manifest within the physical, you create a dam within this river. Blocks are created within your physical and energetic system that may create a backache, a headache, an earache or even things like cancer, seizures and other diseases within your body – they all have an emotional connection, an energetic connection and a spiritual connection.
It is important to realize when you get an ache or a pain within your body to connect with your heart, Dear Ones. Ask your heart, why is this happening? What emotion is this tied to? Think about where you were when you first started feeling the discomfort. What was the incident right before the pain came on? Obviously, sometimes accidents happen and cannot always be avoided. But the majority of the time, the dis-ease and imbalance within your body has an emotional and energetic connection.
I urge you to work at keeping your systems clear and grounded. The more that you can do this, the more light you hold within yourself and the more light you anchor here upon this planet.
Together we can shine so brightly. So brightly.
It was always the intention, as souls first came to this planet, to create Heaven, Home, here on Earth. There have been times when we have achieved that vibration on this planet. It is possible once again. It is possible within your lifetime. Anything is possible, Dear Ones, if you set your mind, your heart and your soul to achieve it.
Each year, when Mother’s Day comes around, I am reminded of this experience I had several years ago. I wrote this article for a magazine and share it with you now in honor of all the Moms out there who care so deeply for their children.
A Mother’s Love Never Ends
My Mother’s Day experience a few years ago was one of those “ah-hah” moments that God so wonderfully puts in our path to teach us life lessons of love and wisdom. Every year when Mother’s Day comes around, I am reminded of this event that so deeply impacted my life.
My husband was scheduled for an 11 hr shift at work putting him out of the house from 10am until 9pm. This did not leave much time for us to celebrate Mother’s Day as a family, meaning more specifically him keeping our three kids in line while I was able to relax. I was disappointed, but completely understood and was concentrating on the fact that my wonderful husband took an entire week off work the previous week so that I could attend a seminar. I continued throughout the day to try to push that “being a girl” side of me away – you know the one – that overly sensitive, emotional side – well, that did not work! Trying to push that away only attracted those feelings to me more (Oh – don’t we all LOVE the LAW OF ATTRACTION!). It was like trying to keep the bar of Dove Chocolate away from the PMS victim – it was NOT going to happen. So I spent a good deal of my day being angry, feeling sorry for myself and listening to the kids fight, which I am sure was more than triggered by me being depressed. I was not in one of those “love and light” type of moods, if you get my meaning.
My husband called to see if we would meet him for an early dinner at an Italian place near his work. We went and the restaurant was closed! Mother’s Day dinner was taco shop for me, but at least I did not have to cook! On the way home from dinner, we passed by the site of a horrific car accident that happened a few miles away from our home a week earlier. The area where the accident had happened had been turned into a memorial with candles, balloons, and flowers. As I passed, I saw him again just as I had seen him in the few days previous to this one. There stood a little boy, looking lost and confused, just staring at the memorial. I knew he was lost. It did not register to him the extent of what happened and his soul had gone into shock, not able to cross over with the others. Being a medium, I see spirits and feel them, but do not always go out of my way to help them cross. At times, this is their lesson to remain earth bound, so it just depends on the energy. Some have unfinished business, others are stuck. As this is a planet of free will, I do not take it upon myself to help any spirit I might see cross over. This boy, however, tugged at my heart. As I passed by, I promised myself I would come back that evening, after things had calmed down with my kids and see if I could help him.
I returned later that night to still find him there, standing near the balloons and flowers. I pulled off the road and onto the dirt lot where the memorial was placed. One single candle was still burning. It was surreal. I had found his name through some research, as well as the name of his mother who had passed in the car crash. He stood there listlessly staring at the street where the drunk driver had hit his family’s car. Flashes of the accident went through my mind – the moments before impact when the children were laughing, when the mother and her sister were discussing their plans. I saw the force of the collision and the SUV spin out of control, flip and burst into flames. I heard the screams of everyone inside the car. I knew as I saw these visions, that this poor child was seeing the same scene, played over and over.
Tears came to my eyes as I called in my guides and the Arch Angels Michael, Gabriel and Jophiel to assist me. I asked Gabriel to make a vortex of light so that the boy could see it and pass through onto the other side. As I spoke to the boy, he was unsure of what was happening as he moved toward me and walked in my direction. I explained that his mother was waiting for him in heaven and that all was fine. He saw the light and stepped towards it but was still hesitant. I began to speak the words “I love you” in his language as his Mother reached out her hand to accept him into this tunnel of pure and divine love. They embraced and looked over at me one last time as if to say thank you and then the tunnel closed. I knew he had crossed and that his soul was at peace. It was a beautiful and loving experience for me. So many lessons I learned that Mother’s Day.
I have learned that the most loving gift and lesson I can ever have is to help another. I have learned that when I get so wrapped up in my own “stuff” the best way to get out of it if to assist someone else. The most precious thing I think any of us here on this planet can do is to serve others through love and compassion. That can be through a smile, a touch, loving energy, watering a plant, patting a pet on the head or simply speaking the words, “I Love You”. Know that we ALL make a difference here. We all have the ability to express ourselves through love and light.
This has taught me to be so grateful for what I do have in my life, and not concentrate on what is “missing”. Please, give your children an extra hug today and know how blessed we all are for having them in our lives.
On a side note, a year or so later, I was at a dear friend’s home, who happens to be a healer. I had a session with her in which she took several photos during the healing. As we sat at her table while she uploaded the images, my eyes fixated on a photo laying in front of me. I recognized the person in the image immediately. The person in the photo was the boy’s mother. She was in the photo, hovering above a man laying down on the healing bed. It looked as if she was comforting him. When I asked my friend about the picture she explained that this man’s family had been killed in a drunk driver car accident. He had come to see her before he left the country to hopefully release the guilt and grief he’d been feeling. I know with all my heart that I was meant to see this picture. It was one more confirmation and a feeling of gratitude ran through me.
God gives us no coincidences. It is up to us to see things as they are and revel in the miracles that surround us.
The following is a transcript from a channeling I did on January 10th, 2014 in Las Vegas at Enchanted Forest Reiki. The room was full of amazing people and energy. As I connected to the Arch Angel Jophiel, this beautiful message about the upcoming year came through:
It is indeed a great honor and a great blessing to be with you this evening. This start of a miraculous new year. And I use the term miraculous not lightly, for there are many miracles in store for each and every one of you. The past year has been one of turbulence for so many. It has been a way of weeding out what has not worked. Many of you have gone through trauma, through turmoil, through your relationships, through your businesses, your careers, your finances. You have said goodbye to those you loved so dearly and to belief systems and truths that you held so closely to your heart. This has been a way for you to realize what no longer serves you. Not to cause you distress or sadness or grief, but to figure out what you really embrace as your truth. For were you not to weed out these different things that no longer worked for you, you would not know your heart. You would not know the strength of your soul, of your spirit. You would not be closer to understanding your mission and purpose for this lifetime. This is a plane of duality, Dear Ones. You learn not only by the light, but you learn by the lower vibrations as well. Those of grief, of sadness, of loss, of negativity. These are all valuable lessons and you each have chosen to be here on this plane of duality and experience all of these different emotions, all of these different lessons, because you have that strength within; because you are that light within. Not every soul comes down from Home and plays human, Dear Ones, only the strongest do. And though you may ask yourselves, “What did I sign up for?” Inside, in your heart, in that space where the spark of Source and Creator resides, you know full well why you signed up for this. You know your purpose. You know your strength.
Each and every one of you come to the lesson of light as you chose to inhabit this physical form. You choose your struggles. You choose the ones that you connect with around you. Though seemingly, it may seem not as if you made these choices and yet you have. For even within the greatest tragedies and traumas come the most valuable lessons and gifts. This is the year where thinking shifts more to seeing the gift in all things than seeing simply the trauma and the tragedy. This is the year where perception changes and you truly embrace that higher view of why you’re here. And when those things come up and when you face those catastrophes and when you face that chaos, you will have the wherewithal to step back. Pull back from the emotion of it, take a deep breath and center, and realize this is merely an experience. This is a phase. This is an opportunity. This is a lesson. This catastrophe, this trauma, this turmoil does not define who I am. It is merely an experience. And as you each know, each experience to you is a drop in the vast ocean. For you are all souls having a human experience. This is not your first dance upon this planet, Dear Ones. You have incarnated many times. You have learned many lessons before and have various missions and purposes which you have fulfilled.
Because of the heightened vibration and energy both on this planet and within humanity as a species, you will connect to a greater degree to your soul and its totality. So when you begin hearing the voices seemingly coming from nowhere, seeing the shadows out of your peripheral vision, having visions of your own or very vivid dreams that you can’t seem to explain, realize that these are all pieces of you. These are different aspects of your soul.
And as you come into this time of 2014, this is the time where you merge with your soul and all its different pieces; all its different aspects and parallels that reside in different dimensions. It is a choice. You can choose to actually feel and sense all of your different parallels, or you can choose to just have the awareness. But either way as your vibration raises, those indications from all of your other senses you’ll be feeling it, you’ll be smelling it, you’ll be seeing it, you’ll be tasting it, you’ll be knowing it. So know that these changes, and many of you have already felt them; you’re either feeling them now or they’re very closely on their way–they are here to aid you. They are not here to cause you further distress. They are here to be used as a tool.
If I were to give you an analogy of the human heart, there are many different vessels within a human heart. There are many different atriums within a human heart. You are going from an aspect of merely operating on one valve in a heart and to this year using it full force. Think of the possibilities, Dear Ones. Think of the amazement that lies ahead of you. The places of joy that you will reach. The different things that you will be able to sense and feel and manifest. And because your vibration is higher, because the frequency upon this planet is higher, your manifestation skills and abilities are also heightened. Be very mindful of your thoughts, Dear Ones. For when you wake up in the morning and you look at yourself in the mirror if you say you are poor you are indeed poor. If you say you are unhealthy, you are indeed unhealthy and that affirmation is a command to the universe and in a frequency such that you are vibrating at, it becomes your reality in an instant.
Be kind to yourself. Treat yourself with the compassion that you treat others with. I do not understand when I look, and I feel, and I sense every single one of you how you could see anything other than perfection. You are created as a god. You are created as the spark of Source. How could you not see that as beauty and light and wonderment? That is all I see and sense in this room. And if you take but one thing home with you tonight, I pray you take that with you. That you are indeed a spark of Source. You are indeed a bright light worthy of all the love in existence in the entire universe. We on the other side watch you in wonderment. We watch how you are these beautiful vast beings of light, these amazing souls that you are, and how you fit into a very tiny, tiny vessel. It is amazing to us how you pull a veil over your eyes because you agreed to and that you forget the wonderment of Home. You forget your vitality. You forget your ability and your power and your light.
It is as if there is a door blocking you from your own connection to your soul. And I ask you to open that door. Don’t just put a foot in. Open it wide open. Allow that light to fill you. For there are portals, there are vortexes opening, allowing that energy to rush through on this earth plane right now. So many things–if you listen to your media, if you listen and you watch your TV programs or your newspapers or your internet–are telling you how terrible the world is around you. And there are reasons for things failing right now. It’s because the system never worked in the first place. It’s because you are awakening. You are remembering your power, your strength, and your light. And you are putting that firm boundary on the ground and saying, “No more.” How wonderful is that? And again I remind you to look for the gift in each lesson as these different programs and these different systems will be in upheaval. And if you were merely to look at it with your analytical mind and your logical thinking you would go into fear. But if you step back and you merge with that heart space, take the deep breath, and call all of your soul in, you will realize the gift. You will see the lesson and you will be able to step away from the split second firing of fear that is such a human emotion. This is the year of taking back your power, of being within your power—calling it in to its full degree.
There’s so much light ahead of you. So much healing will occur this year, both physically, mentally, spiritually. And as each of you step forward and receive this healing and this understanding, you create that space for everyone around you. You create that space for Mother Earth herself and what a beautiful gift to give–believing enough in yourself to shine your own light so that you affect the lives of others. Isn’t that why you’re all here? Wasn’t that the agreement on the other side before you decided to play human? You were going to do the best job you could possibly do, not just move through the motions, but to truly shine.
The energetics that are set for this year are very reminiscent of the times of Lemuria. The times when we all worked together side by side–angels, masters, humans, souls, spirits, light beings, animals, minerals. We all worked for the greatest good of all. The ego didn’t come into play. We opened up our hearts to connect with one another to be a supportive force for each other. To join and merge our own light and our power together. To assist one another, hand in hand, side by side, heart to heart. The energy frequencies are so similar to those of Lemuria. Other galaxies within our universe are watching, are assisting, are adding their light, are adding their love and their power and their intention to help and assist you to manifest something wonderful.
You’ve noticed how your technology has changed really within the last few years. How things seemingly can happen in a split second of time and how time itself has changed. This all has to do with your perception, how your physicality takes in this energy, how your mind and your brain function. I would ask you also to please listen to your bodies for they are becoming attuned to this energy. As they attune to this energy there will be some things to work out. Just as in the past year you have gone through different ways like a roller coaster ride—things that worked for you, things that didn’t work for you, releasing things from your energetic form, releasing things from your relationships–now you will find that your physical self also has to integrate that higher vibration. You might find physical symptoms that seemingly come from nowhere, that you can’t explain, and that a doctor cannot explain. Feel your own bodies. See where those blocks reside. If you’re getting a physical reaction there is an emotional and a spiritual reason for that. Go into quiet time. Connect with your heart. Ask for your guidance, your higher realms, your angels, your guides to be around you and offer you assistance. Connect with the Earth for she has always been there to heal you and to help you and to assist you.
This is also a very wondrous time of bringing forth the divine feminine to a higher frequency and a higher level than it has been on this planet in centuries. The divine feminine, which resides in all of you, both male and female, is about nurturing. It’s about compassion, but it is also about beginning. It is also about rebirth. It is also about power and protection. This will also be very prevalent in the coming year. ….
Thank you all for coming here this evening. We are all gathered here by choice, not by coincidence. The energies that each of you bring have created this space. The light that each of you shines has created this beautiful experience and I am blessed and honored to be a part of it. Thank you so much. And so it is.
I recently volunteered in my son’s fourth grade class and was overwhelmed by the energy of 34 nine and ten year old kids in one seemingly small room. Walking in on a Monday morning, the teacher was swimming in a sea of small children with backpacks, lunch bags, papers and questions. I was so happy my job that day was making copies – in another room.
I don’t know how this amazing woman does her job. To have that much patience must really be a gift from God. Seriously!
I love the role I have as a Spiritual Teacher. I don’t have to worry about hall passes or missing assignments. I just get to be the tour guide to the light. It is such a joy for me to see the light bulb click on inside a student’s head and witness them really embrace their Intuitive gifts.
I’ve been teaching a lot the last few months and I’ve had the blessing of seeing many students awaken in this very way. During a recent Mediumship class, a student was obviously nervous about participating in a psychometry exercise. Each person had brought a personal items of someone who had passed, and the students were to hold one of these items and pick up energies and imprints about the person who had owned the item. I walked the class through the exercise and it came this man’s time to share what came through for him. He had chosen a wallet from the group of items, and prefaced his sharing time with remarks of, “I don’t know what I’m doing,” and “I’m a beginner, I’m not good at this stuff.” But when he took a deep breath and rattled off the impressions he received from holding the wallet, I could see a big smile paint across the woman sitting across from him. She had brought the wallet to class. It was her father’s. And the man NAILED information about him that no one else in the room would have known – he had a mustache, he loved baseball, he had to quit smoking, etc. All from picking up, holding a wallet and opening the door to connect. I will treasure that moment for as long as I live. It is a priceless example to me of trust. He had never done anything like this before, and even though he was unsure of himself, he still tired. And wow! No words can describe the energy in the room as he was validated for the information he brought through.
In another recent workshop, Channeling to be exact, a student came up to me and asked, “Are you sure I can do this?” She was very hesitant about receiving information from Source, thinking she would just be making up the messages that might come through. I reassured her and asked her to take the pressure off herself and to just be in the flow. When it came time for a group channeling exercise, this student brought through the most amazing, pure message from home. Another ah-ha moment I will always reflect back on. She was so proud of herself later and claimed that is seemed effortless.
Witnessing connection to Spirit through students realizing their abilities is such a blessing to me. It’s not because I’m an incredible teacher. It’s just because I know a few trusted roadways and maps on how to get to the light.
Life is about taking the leap and trusting. You never know what you’re able to do until you try.
I was guided to channel a message last Friday night at a Spiritual Circle. Here is what came through:
It is a grateful blessing to all of us who gather here with you this night, this moment. For indeed there are many of us. We have waited in anticipation for this moment, for you to call us in.
We are a collective energy from the other side. Just as all of you are collective energies in your own right, you are all part of the All That Is. Each of your hearts connects with one another. Each of your souls connects with one another, just as you connect with us. We are each the same. And isn’t that beautiful? And isn’t that amazing? And isn’t that magic?
Magic-what an interesting term. For many things can be called and described as magic: love, light, manifestation, abundance. There are so many things that fall into this category. The thrill and excitement of anticipation is quite magical in itself. Each of you is created with the vibration of magic, for magic is in creation itself. It is that Spark of Mother/Father God that resides inside your heart that speaks to you, that is the light itself in which you were created. Its magic, and Dear Ones, that is you. You are a beautiful, magical being of light. And it is only when you lose your way that you begin to doubt that fact. It is only when you play into the ego-mind, that cynicism, that doubt, that you cloud your judgment of the magic that is within.
Let us remind you now of that beautiful spark of light within you. Take a deep breath, Dear Ones, connect with that Spark of light inside you and allow it to glow. Visualize what that is inside of you. Give it a name, a color, a vibration, a frequency, a feeling, a sound – it doesn’t matter. Just connect with it, for that is the magical part of you that is inside and also exists inside everyone else in existence.
As you connect with this magical part of yourself, this Spark of light that is you, it creates a doorway for you to connect with that same Spark of light within others. It is much like a web of light. It is much like the stars within the galaxy, how they connect through constellations, how they create different patterns within the night’s sky. So being, for you as well connect with your own light, with your own frequencies, with your own magic.
Magic is very powerful, Dear Ones. It is not about trickery. It is not about illusion. It is about truth. It is about the truth of who you are as a soul. You are not merely a human being. You are a soul playing the role of human in this very moment and in the past as well. It is magical indeed, for you come into this world seemingly forgetting your connection and your spark. But through your experience, through your life as a human you come into different realizations and remembrances about home, about that Spark inside you, about the magic. And you begin to remember your truth. And you begin to connect with your soul, to know who you truly are, to feel your own power, and to realize that you are never alone.
You are not small, Dear Ones. You are greatness. You are light itself. And indeed, isn’t that magical as well? As you go about your day and the self-talk comes into your mind of doubt, of worry and stress, we urge you to step back, take a deep breath; connect with that Spark that is inside that is you. Remember the magic that you are and how you were created, how you constantly are in every moment. It is time to wake up from the dream, Dear Ones. It is time to own your power. It is time, once again, to practice the magic that is you. For as you stand in your own light, you spread this light to others. And that, indeed, is magic as well.
Remember who you are. Trust and know that in every moment there is light all around you. Each and every one of you is connected to all of us. We are each the same. We each vibrate at the same frequency of light that resides inside that spark that is you. You are the all that is. You are Mother/Father God, for this is how you are created and this is how you will always be. Trust in that, Dear Ones, and don’t be afraid to practice the magic that is you.
It has been a great joy coming through to you this night. And know that we believe in your magic.
Allowing Spirit to Guide Me…(And Other Adventures on the Way to El Pollo Loco)
Before I begin my story, let me just caution you that what I am going to share with you I DO NOT RECOMMEND. This is something that happens to me in my line of work, and I don’t advise it for anyone. That WARNING in place, let me continue….
A few weeks ago, I was into the middle of my day doing sessions and as I looked at the clock my stomach began growling. I had exactly enough time to run to El Pollo Loco – a tasty Mexican Chicken restaurant with a drive thru window – grab some lunch and eat it at home before my next session and then pick up the kids from school. YAY! I was excited.
I get in my car, crank up some tunes and am on my way. I drive a few blocks and suddenly things begin to
shift. I fall into trance.
I hear my guides begin to speak with me about a little girl who is having some issues with disconnect going
on in her brain. My guides show me the little girl’s brain in holographic form. I am shown the synaptic
pathways and where there are disconnects that need some extra energy sent to remove energetic blocks and assist with the information flow of the brain. My guides then walk me through the process of connecting to her pineal gland and completing a clearing of this energy center, as well as show me the method in which her mother, a Reiki Master, can do this process as well. Fascinating stuff! It all becomes crystal clear to me that I need to share this information with the Mom.
I realize, at this point, I am pulling into the parking lot at El Pollo Loco. My stomach is still growling…..hmmmm….do I ditch lunch and call the Mom? How the hell did I get here anyway? There’s a line at El Pollo Loco in drive thru…..hey…I can do both! I make the call to the Mom and start clammering on about what information came through, trying my best not to sound like a psycho lunatic and thanking God that she is open to this stuff. Then it’s my turn in line.
“Can you hold on please? ” (Mom holds)
“Yes, I’d like a chicken combo with beans please. Thank you.” (give my order to drive thru)
“Sorry about that. Yes, so then you connect with her pineal gland and sense for synaptic pathways that
appear weak. You will get a vibe on what kind of energy or symbol to send, it may even appear as a color or sound frequency.”
As I answer the mother’s questions, it becomes my turn to pay for and pick up my order. I am speaking on my car’s bluetooth system so it’s on speakerphone and as I am speaking about pineal glands, brain
connection and energy work, the cashier gives me a funny look but my order comes out REALLY FAST with extra napkins and everything! I can only imagine her thoughts on what she was seeing and hearing.
While I don’t recommend trancing out while you drive, I am so happy that I was open to the experience.
Spirit connects with us when it is divine time. Had I waited till I had a few extra moments to spare in the day, I could’ve missed that amazing sequence of information and techniques I knew nothing about previously.
You never know when Spirit is going to give you a message. It might even be on your way to El Pollo Loco.
This is one reason why I avoid McDonalds…..Those Golden Arches might just be a portal of some kind. I went there once and something stuck with me for the last 27 years. I call him my husband. LOL!
Many people don’t understand what happens to a child when they are sexually abused. I can only speak from my personal experience, but I know from working with others who have been through this type of horrid happening, that they are misjudged. People who have not stood in the shoes of a victim should not even attempt to calculate what they “would” do, because until you are put in a certain situation, you really just don’t know.
Many children will bury their hurt and their pain. They will stuff it and pretend that it doesn’t exist. My abuse began when I was three years old and even as the first act happened, it was my saving grace to splinter off and go somewhere else. I can recall witnessing each encounter with my attacker from a third person stance where I was floating above the situation, removed from it. I believe this was my first experience with the Angels and that they were assisting in this out of body type viewpoint to save me. I know with all my heart had I not stuffed and locked away the five years of abuse I would not be alive today. Leaving my body helped me deal with the pain. Hiding the memory helped me deal with life.
As we all know, things don’t remain hidden forever. The “secret” manifested in my body as a physical ailment and my ovarian system was a complicated wreck! I suffered from ovarian issues beginning at age 13 and on into my mid 30’s. In my mid 30’s during the eruption of an ovarian cyst, the memories I had hidden for so long began to come to the surface. It was as if the body could not longer contain the pain and the secret. Much like a volcano builds up pressure, I erupted.
It’s been a long road from that moment to now. I find it interesting that once the memories came forward that the health issues stopped. Physical problems that had plagued me the majority of my life simply vanished. I wish the emotional healing were that simple. I was thrust under the microscope of those close to me, “Why didn’t you say something earlier? Why are you telling this now? Why can’t you just get over it? Are you making this up?”
My saddened response was, “What purpose would I have in creating a falsity like this?” It hurt my soul to know that by many I wasn’t believed, even though this attacker had raped another relative (no, she didn’t come forward either) as well as he had made passes and advances on other family members, all of which I found out about later.
I found myself trapped between two worlds for a while – the childlike me and the adult me. It was as if I had to relive and bring those memories back into my mind in order to heal them. I went through various stages of PTSD as memories of the abuse would come to the surface and I could not control it. I would be shopping at the market and suddenly the panic attack would come over me. I could smell him, I could feel him. It was as if I was that little girl, sprawled out on the bathroom floor all over again. Life and my emotions became a huge balancing act.
Fast forward to today. I still can be triggered, and actually that’s been going on the last few months. When I feel as if I am under attack, emotionally or otherwise, those last bits of memories I have not healed and released come forward. It was during one such recent moment when it came into my awareness that though my abuser was dead, his soul had not crossed. He was an earthbound spirit, suffering and wandering the earth plane in misery. I will admit, this information gave me some satisfaction that karma reigns supreme. What we do to others does come back to us in one form or another. I was pleased he was hurting. I celebrated that he was finally getting his just rewards for the pain he had caused. The little girl in me wanted to do the happy dance, knowing that payback was in place.
Weeks passed. The triggers subsided. Yet still the thoughts of my abuser remained in the back of my mind. I knew, from the work that I do, that I could help him cross over. It was a no-brainer. I’ve dealt with earthbound spirits before and assisted in their crossing to the other side. But did I want to do this? Did I want to end his suffering? Didn’t he deserve to be in misery?
And herein lies the duality of existence – living the human life as a soul. For with all the tools and learning I have, my human mind and human heart are still very much intact. As a soul, I had to address this with myself. Could I act beyond my own hurt and pain? Could I rise above it and help the very person who had impacted my life on such a large degree?
I sat in deep meditation this morning with my guides around me. It was time. It was time to let go. It was time to move to a deeper state of light and holding on to this pain was no longer serving me. I shifted into healer mode, and as I did so I could feel Arch Angel Jophiel and Arch Angel Michael beside me and gathered with them were the Arch Angels Raphael and Gabriel. I could sense my uncle and his pain as Arch Angel Gabriel brought down the tunnel of light. Raphael and Gabriel took him by his hands to guide him through, but he resisted. He said that it was a trap. He was not going to the pits of hell. He knew what was waiting for him.
I walked towards him and placed my hand on his heart. I focused on sending as much light as possible into his spirit. As I did so, I began to clear his energy, calling to release any vibration or lower forms that were holding him here and preventing his crossing. As the clearing progressed, I saw an entity leave his energy field. I recognized the eyes of this entity, for I had seen it each time my uncle molested me. With a flash, the energies were drawn into the light and suddenly my uncle was cleared. He was lighter and brighter and his entire structure and mannerisms changed. He stumbled forward, to the tunnel of light, turning to look back at me.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “Please forgive me.” And in that very moment, I did. I let it go. I forgave him. I released the past pains as I watched him enter a space of higher vibration and unconditional love he hadn’t experienced in quite some time.
And here I am, experiencing a higher vibration and unconditional love as well, just on another level. I am here in the duality of life, realizing that being human is a juggling act. Sometimes it’s best to act and react as the stumbling human that I am, and other times it takes embracing my soul to truly understand what this life is really all about – LOVE.
This coming Sunday will mark the one year anniversary of the passing of my father, Dale Wolfe, Sr. As the approach of this day has loomed seemingly over my head since the start of this month, it has brought much reflection to my life. Once the calendar flipped over to the month of June, I set a conscious intention to make July as busy as possible so that I would be distracted and would not have time to feel the sadness that still knocks me to my knees at times. There is a hole in my heart that no one else can fill. And even though I know Dad’s spirit is around me, and seen quite often by my son, it is not the same. That human being that I am is still a very sense oriented person. I want to hold Dad’s hand again. I want to feel his strong arms around me. I want to see those hazel eyes twinkle and hear that amazing laugh. I want and I want, but it doesn’t seem to change things.
In the higher perspective, I have the conscious awareness that it was Dad’s “time” to go. He was ready to let go of his physical form and no longer be in pain. Cancer is a terrible illness and involves so much on an energetic level I couldn’t even explain it in words. If I could perhaps set off a nuclear bomb that’s radiation infects everything within it’s path for miles and miles of existence, it might begin to scratch the surface of what this horrid disease does to a person. I am forever grateful that my dear Father no longer feels this pain or struggle within himself.
It’s been a long year without him. Milestones and tragedies have occurred in the family. We lost my father in law, George, six months after Dad passed, to cancer as well. Dad’s spirit was there at the hospital as I assisted George in his transition, guiding me and supporting me every step of the way. When I had to be strong for my husband and our family, Dad was there lending his hand and his strength to me once more. So often I am drawn to pick up the phone and call him to share something that’s happened with my kids or ask for one of his pearls of wisdom, and then I realize that I can’t do that anymore. But now he knows without me even saying the words. I find myself singing the songs we liked to sing or watching the westerns we would watch together. Recently when I went to the theater to see a new western, I could feel Dad right there next to me, talking to me about how much the Lone Ranger had changed since he used to see it.
There is much that saddens me, but in so many ways I am forever thankful for the new connection that Dad and I share. I truly feel he is the one person in the whole wide world that ever really understood me and never judged me. To say this man loved me unconditionally would be an understatement. He didn’t always understand what I did, or agree with my belief systems, but he accepted me.
I hadn’t realized until just recently how much guilt I was holding onto in regards to how Dad passed. Me, being so enlightened and all (right!) just assumed I aligned with that higher understanding of each soul choosing their exit point and transitioning when it was there chosen time. Someone should have explained that to my unconscious and conscious mind, because in the depths of those realms laid a heavy weight of false belief thinking I could have done something different to prevent his passing and the accident that ultimately caused his death. That little girl inside me that he’d protected and safeguarded my whole life was questioning how on earth I could not do the same for my beloved father. Why had I failed him? How could I fail him?
Just writing those words takes the air out of my lungs.
My father was the first to step forward upon this realization and ask to assist in helping me clear that energy. He reassured me that it was nothing I did or did not do. He wasn’t living a life he wanted to live anymore and he was through with hospitals, chemo treatments and being poked and prodded. He couldn’t be the man he wanted to be and so he chose to move into a different vibration that allowed him the freedom to watch over his family. This was his solution, he said, this was his soul-ution. As he spoke to me a clarity came over my mind and my body. I felt a peace I hadn’t felt in some time move through me.
So where is the gift in all this? Of course it is that my father is no longer in pain and as the eternal soul that he is, he is still present in my life. But is there more that I am to learn from this? Was there something else? I posed these questions to my Dad this morning as I enjoyed the few moments of quiet time I had. When I looked back at the last few years in my life and the losses I’ve experienced on a personal level – two very close friends and the two fathers in my life – as well as the many transitions I’ve assisted with, I felt like there was more I was supposed to understand.
So many people turn to you to bring through messages from their loved ones who have passed because they are in such a deep state of grief, my father said. What if you could teach them to move through that grief by connecting with their loved ones from the other side? The healing can go hand in hand, just as it has worked for you. Think of the times I’ve asked you to give me your pain so that I could assist you. Think of the energy, prayer and emotional techniques you’ve used over the last year and what has helped you. What if you could teach others this very same thing? Moving through the emotions, connecting to their loved ones and having Angelic assistance to boot! Sounds like a great plan to me!
Yep, Dad. It sounds like a great plan to me too. Looks like there is another gift here to be found. I think I’ve got a lot of writing to do and a big project in the works now. Good thing I’ve got help with this one!
Does times heal all wounds? I think the void that is created when we lose a loved one through death is a deep wound. But as with all wounds, the healing begins when we find the right remedy. Perhaps the best soul-ution for that is filling the void with the love we feel for those that have passed and making the conscious choice to connect with them.
I love you, Daddy. Thanks for helping me to keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other.
Sensing Spirits and Angels can be absolutely incredible! Being able to connect people with their loved ones on the other side is also very rewarding and healing. Some of what I see and sense is not comfortable, and has taken some getting used to. Some of it I will never understand and there are those instances when I will put up the barrier and down right demand that I not come into connection with certain energies.
Here’s a recent experience I’ve been dealing with over the last few days:
I was in the shower (and water is a great conductor of energy, btw, so some of our greatest visions and connections will happen around water) and a flash of a scene played out in my head. I saw a young man I connected with years ago. His face was vivid and clear. In the next instance I saw him on the floor, looking like he was passed out. Then I saw his soul leave his body. All this happened in a matter of moments. I hadn’t seen him in years. I was not close to him, had no way of contacting him, so I brushed it off. Just a weird flash of energy, I thought. Nothing more, nothing less.
Well that’s what I thought….until days later I heard through the grapevine that this man had died. He had died a sudden death, collapsing and being found hours later. The news saddened me to my core. It’s not that I felt responsible, for I know there was no way of me preventing this. I was sad because he was so young and such a beautiful soul with an amazing heart. The kind of guy that would literally give you the shirt off his back. I couldn’t figure out why I had the premonition. I don’t want premonitions. They make me feel helpless. It’s one thing to question if a certain event will happen and it’s another to be handed the information, whether you want it or not.
Years ago, when I had my first premonition, I was about 6 or 7 years old and I saw the death of a family member before it happened. That continued, and with family members I seemed to be accepting of it. Then ten or twelve years ago, I was sitting at my computer and I was shown a very intense scene – a father and son were washed away by a flash flood. I saw their bodies under the overpass, I got the name of the street. I felt the pain of their last breaths, the overwhelm of the Dad knowing he couldn’t save his son, the pressure as their lungs filled with water. I wrote the vision down and the next day looked up the street name. It happened to be in a town where a father and son were missing. They later found the bodies near the overpass of that street.
I was mad! Why on Earth would God give me this information if there was nothing I could do? I didn’t want to feel people’s deaths…I didn’t want to experience their pain. What was I going to do, call up a police department in Tim Buck Two and say oh, by the way, I was having a vision and this is what I saw? Who would believe me? Even I was second guessing my sanity.
A short time later I was asked to tap into a missing child’s case. A friend has asked for my input. I took the young girl’s photo and connected with her energy. I saw her in an open field and she was playing. Then I saw a man approach her. He lured her to his car where he did terrible things to her and later killed the child. I stopped the scene was it was playing out. It knocked me off kilter. I didn’t want to see this, didn’t want to feel it, and couldn’t separate my emotions from connecting with the evil coming from the man and the helplessness of the child. It made me physically ill. I threw up. I had an anxiety attack. It was more than my soul could bare.
I decided to make a pact with God, my guides and my Angels. I had the big pow-wow. I outlined what I was willing to do to be of service – energy work, shamanic travel, reading, connecting with the other side to bring through information to assist others. I told them I would slay the demons if need be and remove dark entities from people, homes and spaces. But what I would NOT do was allow my abilities to be used to see into situations I could offer no help or assistance. I did not want to see things in the future that were beyond my control and I did not want to be involved in murder cases or violence against children. I had to set my clear boundaries of what felt right for me.
Since that time, I’ve never had an issue. One big pow-wow, the boundaries were set and I thought it was all good, at least up until a few days ago. Why was I getting this information? I wasn’t asking for it, that’s for sure.
So tonight, I sat down with Arch Angel Michael. I wanted answers. I wanted to know why our “deal” was broken. What was the greater lesson here, cause all I was feeling was sadness and helplessness.
Arch Angel Michael’s response:
Breathe deeply, for I know you are upset. This has rocked you to your core. It makes no logical sense so allow me to show you the light within the situation.
When you first connected with this man, you saw his light. You felt his heart. You saw the passion for life within him and within the work he brought to this world. You experienced his greatness and this energy was imprinted in your mind. Though you had no personal connection with him, he impacted your thoughts on life, on humanity and on the light that can exist within a human form. You literally came into contact with his soul that day. You made that strong of a connection with him.
When he left this world, you felt that as well. The days that came before his exit point, as a soul he was pondering his demise, going over the issues of being complete with his lesson and path. You FELT THIS. You felt this soul that touched your life contemplating his death. It was merely an awareness coming into your consciousness. It was nothing more and nothing less. Just as we are all one, part of the All That Is, you felt the decision in the works for him to leave his human body and step completely into the light. You sensed the change in energy and vibration. Do not take this as a bad thing. It is not negative. Look at the amazing gift this man gave you – the ability to see a soul, to feel a heart, and to see light within motion.
Do not grieve the loss or the suddenness of the experience. Celebrate the way one soul touched another. Celebrate the realization and confirmation once again that the soul is eternal.
We are all one in the same. We are of the same light, created with the same unconditional love. Understand that as a soul you have the opportunity to touch the lives of others just as this man has touched yours. He impacted you because you chose to be open to the experience. You chose to open your heart and your eyes to truly see him in his entirety. How could that be anything less than a miracle?
Allow yourself to see the light in this, my Dear. Let go of the false belief that this was a bad experience.
Well, put in that perspective, how could I view this as anything less than a gift?
We really don’t know the impact we have on others. I spent less than a few hours time with this man, and yet he’s brought a profound awareness into my life. Think of how you impact others. When we take the time to be aligned with who we really are, we shine our brightest.
I am grateful to have connected with such a beautiful spirit. He is much loved and forever imprinted upon my heart.